Do you ever feel stuck? I mean really stuck, like there is no way out. If you added one more thing to your plate you would fall apart. It could be the littlest thing, that would cause this leaning tower to tumble to the ground inevitably hitting the cold, hard bottom. Some days are great and vibrant and full of life and I feel lucky and blessed that God has chosen me to be a part of something so wonderful and challenging at the same time. But then there are those days, the ones that are more often than not, when I could sit in the middle of the floor and really fall apart, paralyzed with the depth of the situation. It is times like that when I know I need to press into the Living Waters that flow through me, the God that saves me, the hope that I so desperately need to cling too.
You know what I find that always happens when you think you are about to break, when you have reached the point of no return and you feel like you are going under, you know what happens, something miraculous. Something wonderful, a situation changes, a circumstance becomes a distant memory, the present becomes the past and the future is bright and sunny because that hope that you have been holding onto, that hope that has been the only thing that keeps you a float from day to day has finally become tangible! And you can taste the atmosphere change, you can see things in a new day and you can get a new motivation and momentum going.
Now, its not all doom and gloom over here, but from where I sit it can be very stressful and at times seem unbearable to work full time from home while raising twin 6 month old boys, keeping the house in order, cooking and running errands on a weekly basis. Some days are so hard you really could dig a hole and just live there but most of the time I realize that God gives you only what you can really handle and its usually more than what you thought you could :) Lets be real and agree that life isn't always daisies and roses and sometimes its just a heaping bag of sheesh that someone so inappropriately left at your door. Its those times that you have to laugh and smile because you are ultimately taken care of and your basic needs are met and even if they aren't you're still breathing aren't you? So chin up, look at the bright side and with every pile you encounter just remember there is someone somewhere laughing at your expense so you might as well join them:)
I hear ya cluckin'
Candace
